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Suicide notes from the happiest girl alive

Date Written: September 26, 2017
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Have you ever looked into the eyes of the girl with a head full of  demons , but a heart full of angels? You watch her burst with laughter and sing at the top of her lungs, but you can't see her mind destroying her telling her that her laugh is annoying and her lungs telling her she should just stop breathing, from the outside she looks like an inviting autumn day full of fall scented candles and warm blankets, but on the inside she's a cold, wet April hurricane of low serotonin and Zoloft generators to make sure she can function properly when her power goes out. She'll fool you into thinking she is the happiest girl in the world like she wakes up with a smile on her face ready to face the day, but little do you know she woke up wondering why she was still alive, she scrapes herself off the bed and paints her face pretty colors hoping that will distract people from her broken smile. She breaks her own heart every day as she stares at her naked body and wipes the tears from her eyes & says to herself, " I'm sorry that I never loved you". You would think that she would be used to hearing it, because she's heard those same words muttered to her, her entire life, but it's still rips her heart to shreds just like it was the first time she heard it. She tries so hard to love herself, but it's so hard to try and learn to love something she has hated her entire life.

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