Once again waking up, yet another year since you’ve gone.
Another year of smiles I can’t share,
hugs I can’t squeeze
And advice I cannot ask for.
Your picture was just that before,
Now it’s a reminder
A reminder of lost things
A smack in the face with the reminder
Yes, you’re still gone.
No, it’s not a dream
Life continues without you.
I wish I could be more accepting
I wish I wouldn’t get flooded with this angst and constant feeling that I forgot something,
Like I left the door open somewhere
It that feeling of missing a piece of the puzzle
It’s not just me that’s missing,
it’s the world that missed it too
the chance of your blooming
It’s the husband you didn’t marry
The babies you didn’t give birth to
The challenges you didn’t overcome.
The more time passes the more I miss you and the more I forget
Forget the sound of your laugh, the pitch of your out of tune singing
The way you smelled
All I have now is your face and that’ll have to do for now.