She's never been one to regret
the things she's done
but sometimes she lets
the past get the best of her
so she'd burn one.
She doesn't know if she's become what she hates
or hates what she's become,
but she can't stand to look in the mirror.
she wished she'd see things clearer.
She didn't realize just how unhappy she was,
but by then, it was far too late.
She's lost in an abyss
just trying to find her way back
to doing the things she misses.
She's still learning to love herself.
Shit seems like an endless battle,
the way she sells herself short
like everything she gives doesn't even matter.
Searching for the love she needs to feel within
in everyone else,
thinking they'll give her joy,
but she only loves for the moment…
just to fill a void.
She won't allow herself to be cared for,
as much a they'll try.
She pushes away everyone she's ever gotten close to
and doesn't even know why.
She keeps her head high though
so no one sees the pain.
The tragedy in counting her own footsteps
just to keep herself sane.
Because she has lost
and has hurt in so many ways,
she feels everything so deeply
and means everything she says.
This is why she's so genuine,
so kindhearted & pure,
she's just trying to recieve the beauty
that she puts out into the world.
The way her eyes & her smile
can light up an entire room,
she's just trying to admire herself
the way everyone else does
when they see the way she moves.