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bitter wonderings

Date Written: November 13, 2017


i watch you… 
whispering lover's secrets in her ears 
with the knowing that 
one time… 
it was ME you were loving, 
calling ME special, 
calling ME your one, 
and i can't help but feel 
the acidic bile rising up in my throat 
mixing itself like a vile cocktail of tears, 
suppressed revenge, 
and all the while 
this violent volcano is simmering inside of me… 
i watch her softly smile and laugh the way lovers do 
and i wonder… 
when will it be MY turn to shine…? 
when will i be someone's special one in the sun…?



2 comments on “bitter wonderings”

  1. JessicaMars     November 13, 2017

    Love has the propensity to make you feel elation and to feel rejection… we choose When? When you can quite easily love yourself until you wait I was in the same situation as you so eloquently write it & survived going scorched earth ❤️❤️❤️

    1. River.Ophelia     November 13, 2017

      the tables are turned so quickly in the affairs of the human heart and it is quite the complex ride…
      thank you for your kind words of encouragement 🙂

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