i watch you…
whispering lover's secrets in her ears
with the knowing that
it was ME you were loving,
calling ME special,
calling ME your one,
and i can't help but feel
the acidic bile rising up in my throat
mixing itself like a vile cocktail of tears,
and all the while
this violent volcano is simmering inside of me…
i watch her softly smile and laugh the way lovers do
and i wonder…
when will it be MY turn to shine…?
when will i be someone's special one in the sun…?