Joshua Colbert' Profile

 
Feeling so depressed, as I’m dressed in an invisible black suit pressed; meant to bring me stress with no witness to see me digress mentally during the process of feeling empty, as no one friendly would bring apathy to my sad reality that involves suicidal thoughts daily with an evil entity pressuring the intended pervading exit out of this society…. My tears eliminate the fears as it cures the mind of pain that has been inflicted for years due to past peers enabling my future that nears with death that clears the horizon of painful spears…. I dream of peace with visions of laying deceased, as the premonition won’t decrease due to speeds of adrenaline that ease with sertraline, but squeeze the dopamine for release to determine inner analogies that hurt all my possibilities of curing this disease that spreads rapidly through conformity…. I pray for happiness each day, but sadness comes anyway as I write to express its play; that fortress’ millions of hate molecules in my vein and to no avail it stays the same….

 
I love her caramel skin and she’s thick; not thin and short within as I begin to tell how I fell for a girl, who matches my personality all too well…. She’s special and a true intellectual as I wish to claim her heart made of metal with reciprocation being trouble; she doesn’t feel the same way about me, so I blame myself entirely as I became too friendly real early with rain dropping in my eye’s as I can’t say her name aplenty because the pain of her not caring only brings sympathy with disdain on her face of non-chivalry…. She calms me down, as her voice eliminates my frown due to the sound of an angel-like mist moistening around her vocals; making me drowned in her surround river of un-profound wisdom…. I want her to be happy, as I’ll gladly stop my chivalry due to her only seeing me as “friendly”; the friend zone creates my painful moan as I know that she’ll grow and fall in love with another unknown, as I must let her go because I’m in love with her so….

 
With every bad thing that’s happening around the world it’s saddening, false prophesizing has been arising as of late with many that degrade their supposed “faith” and turn into a theist with nothing great to say; as I elaborate how they don’t support nor reject the claim of a religion…. Picture people yelling “blasphemy” at the deity who proclaims his or herself as the “magically” induced propriety to curing society of its problems  when in reality that power is strongly falsified entirely due to a devilish entity that stimulates the body into an evil hierarchy…. Imagine the Apostasy by those who’ve quit religion due to feeling unforgiven as they couldn’t stop the sinning and kept a foul talking pigeon that spoke Arabic and denounced God’s mission with repetitive listening; as the owner was not dismissing the speeches of evil persuasion by Satan who caused this invasion of an animal possession with the egregious lessons…. Fake Christians recognize that these rhymes were meant for you to realize your own demise as you’ve been desensitized by your willingness to despise the following of the Bible and Jesus Christ, now it’s not too late to suffice so think twice….

 
As I get older, I realize how much colder the world is, as people are left to smolder and suffer in a world where no lover truly exists and instead hides undercover with no lead to discover the whereabouts of any follower…. The mystery of this internal entity is supposedly a justification of an identity that enamors the mind quickly with feelings of empathy for another individual or hobby, but lately it’s been nothing that resonates clearly to society, as it’s just glorified quite honestly…. My whole point is not to anoint non-existence, but just to create joint speculation in-order to employ a creation with rhythmic mediation of joy without fabrication, as I might annoy those who don’t care for participation to deploy a new real life sensation; meaning “love” shall now face expiation with the atonement to change every nation…..

Give me a hit of that real sh*t, before I plead the fifth and act like you don’t exist, because right now I’m p*ss*d and ready to slit my m*th*rf*ck*ng wrist…. My conquest is unlike the rest and no this is not a test, as I must profess my interest in death; so that I can finally lay to rest and not feel any regrets, as I’m always burning like cigarettes in the inside that makes me yell as if I have Tourette’s …. So why even try to survive when my life has always been a lie? I can’t deny with tears in my eye’s that being a nice guy is a curse in disguise, as I’ve been used so many times and if you understand then you better feel these rhymes and realize that the devil is taking minds and alternating them to be unwise…. I choose to die and reside in my mind the useless time; I’ve spent living this life and to hopefully not be reborn overnight….

 
The evolution of biology is very correlative to our reality, as we casually study an organism and its ways of gaining energy…. Monopoly of questions about cells arose as Robert Hooke was the first to host a picture of his findings through microscopes, as he took notes that revealed his past quotes about his philosophy and hopes while manually mixing antidotes upon discovery to show it was not a hokes…. Biology soon quickly evolved through rudimentary and microscopy, as the identity of cells was shown throughout history…. Our DNA was made to translate, as amid the cell wall was plasmid, that was thick and small; relishing its willingness to evolve with temperas quickness around the nucleoid to envoy a long deploy through an implicit joy…. The organelle was made to propel through any cell while providing a large vacuole…

Some days I cry, wondering why I must hide the love that I have for her deep inside, as it’s not right to have these feelings screwed in so tight…. I’ve had dreams of her being my wife with kids being born overnight and a visual sight of holding her all the time, but in reality it’s all a lie with her saying “No” every time…. I came into her life not knowing why? As I felt deprived of love until I saw her eye’s; that made my hormones arise with visions of holding her if she ever yelled cries of sadness through her bad times…. She’s smart and beautiful with fruitful animations that match her presentations of life that brings heavy stimulations, causing me to lose temptations by creating violations that are unfamiliar with my characterizations as these feelings create expectations of love that won’t happen during reciprocations, as she chose different destinations while leaving me lost in incarcerations with un-fulfillments of various gratifications…. I’m charred and burned as I’ve now learned that being spurned by someone who I thought earned my heart and would never turn, but was instead an urn made to churn my heart that felt the burn….

I emaciated my flesh to debate against the best in order to educate the rest, as this is not a test…. *Puts on camouflage jacket*…. Lt. General-“Men, we must win this war to begin a new trend and never again will we befriend our allies, as it will arise suspicion of a surprise attack on our lives.”…. Me-“Excuse me sir, but what war?”…. Lt. General- “Look outside….*Sighs*”…. Me-*looks through binoculars into a distance* “Why are they heading this way?”…. Lt. General-*Shrugs shoulders* “Who knows? But we must attack!”…. Me-“Ok, it’s on…. Let’s go!!!!”……  Bodies scattered, everybody’s battered, if only this war could end faster, why we all must turn our children into a b*st*rd with social tendency no longer a factor…. g*dd*mn look at our corridor on the second floor where there’s bodies and more, oh how I can’t ignore watching the blood pour, such a cruel sport we must abort…. Nobody cares as this hobby tears a family apart with no unity on par, as we start to lose our heart and soul literally by being afar on a foreign land where we forget who we are…. A few of us made it, but we hesitated when we we’re told to be “evacuated” as it created a fear of being incinerated and seeing our lives vacated due to the escalated violence of socially generated meritocracy elevated delivery of stained soldiers to be eliminated by a grenade or rocket launcher that penetrated…. Lt. General-“Well done soldiers!!!! We have vanished the enemy, now of course we’ve had some loss of life, as did they! But that’s the price of war!!!! Be proud of yourselves.*Smiles*”…. Me-*Sighs*…. To be continued?

Guess whose back?.... That’s right!!!!(Haha)…. I took a break so that I could concentrate on my faith, as I’ve regained my old passion and it’s still the same, I overcame an obstacle that was in my way; now I’ve changed and came back to regain my old spot that I claimed as it held true to my reign as I survived the pain that was inflicted on me every day…. How can I quit writing? When all the fighting in the World keeps us dying? I’m replying to those who are trying and uniting by keeping each community surviving, while thriving and implying the notion of refining, as my timing of returning is defying a rebirth of trying to gain girth, because since birth I was alone on earth and it still hurts…. My pen squirts the ink with a thirst to think with a course of action to not blink, but to instead shrink the pain and leave it dead, as it was once fed lies that would spread to the top of my head; leaving me depressed and sleeping too much in bed with nothing to eat but a slice of bread…. d*mn, I’m back!!!! And fierce with a lyrical attack that’s meant to be spiritual at that!!!! I’m no longer wearing black; I’m donning white to let you know that I won’t retract!!!!….
 

Most females find me unsterile because I’m not rocking the latest Jordan apparel and so instead they shoot at me like “Collin Farrell” in “Phone booth” with words that won’t improve my self-esteem soon….  So here’s something new, when I ever make my debut on a news scoop, let it say “Joshua C. just came through!” providing that real proof with a 21 gun salute just to dilute those who only befriended me for my loot…. My dream to takeover NYC with pure analogy and to momentarily douse those in my future Burroughs, when I arose after writing this prose, please catch a dose; as my anger is unlike most whenever I make a toast and boast about my gross income to expose the fake from their head to their toes with no doldrums of calm air for my foes….  You’ve exhumed the waking corpse within me, with no room to be friendly, as the dew of doom came for any enemy that would soon pull hierarchy against me, as this so called “Nerd” finally said “screw society” and now instead it’s more about the money….