I didn't see you when I fell in love

I didn't see you when I fell in love
I didn't see the way you felt as you dove in
I didn't see your soft plentiful skin near me
I didn't see when people were ok with you and me
I didn't see the sparkle on your glasses
I didn't see all the synchrinous crosses
I didn't see the standards you dropped for me
I didn't see the same innocent way that you see
I didn't see the loving heart in your chest
I didn't see the unique way you were dressed
I didn't see that you were meant for me
I didn't see how things were supposed to be
I didn't laugh enough at your funny jokes
I didn't see the superb way you spoke
I didn't reach out to hold your soft hand
I didn't see your big brain as more than bland
I didn't know your beating heart when you saw me stand
I didn't judge you marriage material baby
I didn't brush my hair or wear a skirt for you to see
I didn't feel more than shallow fear although it was great
I didn't even recognise our date
Although you never spoke as they ridiculed  through and through
I didn't even fall in love with you
I didn't see the light within your perfect soul
I didn't see us together growing old
There's so many things I didn't see
Not even a thought of the tears you shed for me
Now I am old and I'm sure you are too
Were you my twin flame hidden in the dew