Dear Ex

If only I had the guts to tell you the truth
if only I was courageous enough to give you reasons
if only I had hold on
if only I could hate you
if only...

if only I could stop thinking about you because I know you ain't
if only you could give us another chance
if only I knew what you meant to me
if only I could stop worrying about losing you
if only...

I may be quiet but I have so much to say
I may be happy but am out of sorts
I may have let you go but not because i wanted to
I may still love you but its killing me
I may be

out of nowhere we cut off communication
Then I became scared of losing you
Then I remembered you are not even mine
Then we became strangers
And now I do not know what hurts me more:
Is it talking to you or not talking to you