Black butterfly

Black butterfly... I see you...when I watch the sky turn into honey that created the sunset. Till noon, the sky went to a cotton candy blue as it reached dark. The dark sky filled with specks of lights peaking through as I laid my head onto my pillow. I see you...I never quite understood why this particular butterfly was always around me. When I wake up I see you.. in the sky appearing in between a shadow just fluttering your wings as the sky would change scenes. I see you… When I lay upon my bed saying my prayers you’re around the back corner of my bedroom, Sometimes you would stay there and watch me. You watch when I get up every morning to watch the sun hit its peak, to sit on the school bus in awe of the trees dancing as the wind would blow. I see you... watching me sitting in class silent, waiting for the day to end. I walk alongside a hill where I imagine a gold path and a sky filled with gold specks forming the moon every time I look up. I see you... when mama asks how my days are and she fills my face with kisses. I see you.. at dawn. As I close my eyes you’re my last image before I fall into a slumber. I never feared that I was being followed by a butterfly everywhere I went. If anything I felt like I knew this particular butterfly. I see you..when you lead me to the room where mama sits by her window singing above with her hands high and her eyes closed. I peak towards her door as I see a stream of heartache flowing throughout the room. The room was dark yet red peaking throughout like a lightning strike broken between a heart. I come towards the opening of the door to face her.
“Mama...you okay”, I asked.
“Yes baby, Mama will be okay,” She replies.
She began to hug me in her arms. I lay my head against her chest and close my eyes. I open one eye to see you appearing your shadow on the wall with a blue heart. I began to smile. I know that was you. I saw you... When I watch Papa come home later in the night working tirelessly long hours away. I saw you.. when Mama received the call about Papa. Mama dropped the phone to the floor and got on her knees to pray. I saw you... when I watch Mama sleep endlessly in the bed as I watch the doctors come in and out to keep mama alive. I walk into Mama’s room.
“Mama it’s this butterfly that follows me and I met it before,” I express.
She laughed.
“Come sit on Mama’s lap and let me tell you a story,” she says
The next morning, I saw you...you didn’t appear black you appeared blue. You started to flutter away. I smile and begin to say “Bye brother, see you later. “