War

HMRyan 1977 (New York)



Thoughts of rage
Thoughts of violence
Thoughts of sex
Thoughts of nakedness
Thoughts of uncontrollable actions engulf my mind

Emotions of raging hormones
Emotions of savage-obsessed passion bite at his skin
Emotions of extremely overpowering sexual desire
Emotions of tearing away the layers keeping me trapped inside
Emotions of uncontrollable actions engulf my mind

I fight for sanity
I fight for control
My mind swirls in disarray
Confusion is everywhere!

Releasing the cruel brutality
Of the vicious animal hidden so deep inside
Emotions unknown to all humanity
Fear drives the anxiety

Surrendering to the overwhelming need,
The overpowering desire,
The overwhelming passion,
Pure serenity escaped!

I may have lost this battle,
…but the war is not over!

About this poem

This is the result of collected notes written down when I couldn't communicate.

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Written on 2023

Submitted by HMRyan77 on June 26, 2023

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Scheme XAXAB XXCDB EXXX EDEE XCXX XC
Closest metre Iambic tetrameter
Characters 764
Words 128
Stanzas 6
Stanza Lengths 5, 5, 4, 4, 4, 2

HMRyan

Throughout my lifetime, I have been diagnosed with bipolar I, borderline personality disorder, anxiety, ADHD, and OCD. However, no one is actually convinced or definite on any one diagnosis. Nevertheless, I seriously do not need any diagnosis to know who I am. I am Heather M Ryan, and I am beautifully crazy in my own chaotic way; I almost always have a method to my madness. These are my feelings, my opinions, and my own personal thoughts. I was born with a silver spoon in my mouth, but my life hasn't always been that way. I have been at most ends of the spectrum… rich and miserable, poor and madly in love, desperate, depressed, and homeless. Like my brain, I still have yet to find a happy medium in life. The last 45 years have left me in tears, shaking with fear and panic, running from a painful reality and past, the streets in the pouring down rain, homeless praying God would answer my prayers and send help, naked under the stars and in complete awe at how God works miracles just when you think all is lost. God has brought me from the deepest darkest depths of hell into the sunlight and has showered me with love and mercy time and time again. I look forward to enjoying this final chapter of my life with you and anyone else that would like to join us. You can follow me on Facebook at Heather M Ryan or visit my website at www.1hellofajourney.com. more…

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