Survivor
Claire Holdsworth 1969 (Southport)
I am a survivor of domestic violence,
Finally breaking me from a life of silence,
Unspoken pain and misery followed me for years
I never cried I blocked my tears,
Never allowing him to see
For breaking down in front of him was the worst thing I could do,
So I had to be strong and just accept my fate
For any kind of weakness he would negate,
Negate it all and make me feel like I wasn’t worth anything at all
Only exist to serve him worship and adore him
Every time he hurt me I’d build a wall around me adding a brick piece by piece
Until my wall become so strong that I could look past him and beyond
Every time he’s hurt me it would kill any love I had for him,
Every punch every kick every strangle every choke
I’d look at him and think you’re a joke
A pathetic excuse for a man let alone a father
A man who constantly professed his love for his children and me
Though when it came down to it he never cared one bit
Years and years I put up with him and my love had long since died ,
I still dare not challenge him
But one with thing I couldn’t deny
Was my longing for a bette life I knew was waiting for me ,
A life of freedom and free of his control
Never daily having to be told
You’re this your that your worthless
One thing though
I always knew that I was so much stronger than him
I also know he knew that to
This also frightened for him
For his failings as a human haunted him
Though I was not to blame for his weakness and his pain for whatever haunted him was not my cross to bare and I was not to blame
So now I’m finally free
I let my wall come down
I’m happy just to be alive to be able to tell my story
To inspire to give hope
About this poem
My poem is about personal experience of living with and escaping domestic violence in my own words
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Submitted by caholdsworth on November 09, 2022
Modified on March 05, 2023
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Closest metre | Iambic hexameter |
Characters | 1,691 |
Words | 374 |
Stanzas | 3 |
Stanza Lengths | 25, 6, 4 |
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