Analysis of True Feelings

GOD, I AM AN INSIGNIFICANT CREATURE WHO CAN'T SPEAK IN FRONT OF THE LORD OF THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE
BUT MY HEART ACHES INCESSANTLY
AND I HAVE NOBODY WHO CAN COMPREHEND MY FEELINGS
THIS WORLD WOULDN'T BE ANY DIFFERENT IF YOU WOULDN'T HAVE CREATED ME
A MERE BURDEN, A PURPOSELESS SOUL
HOW AM I ANY USE TO YOUR WELL DEVELOPED PLANS
IN THE CYCLE, ONLY I AM DEFEATED
I WANT TO DIE, BUT THE AFTERLIFE MAKES ME NERVOUS
I CAN'T BEAR THE PAIN ANYMORE, IT'S OVERWHELMING
OH CEASE MY LIFE OR TURN ME INTO A EMOTIONLESS CREATURE
CERTAINLY, IT WOULD HAVE BEEN BETTER IF I WAS NORMAL
A HAPPY CHILDHOOD, A LOVING MOTHER AND A JOYFUL ADULTHOOD
ATLAST MY LIFE IS JUST A EXCRUCIATING JOURNEY
EVERY SECOND FEELS LIKE A THOUSAND CENTURIES
BUT I CAN'T COMPLAIN ANYWAY, IT'S THE GOD'S PLAN
I HAVE SPENT TWENTY YEARS BUT I CAN SEE NO GAIN
NO PURPOSE BUT ONLY HARDSHIPS AND PAIN
AS I GROW UP, LIFE BECOMES A DESERT PLANE
SAVE ME OH LORD, SAVE ME, MY MIND IS RUNNING INSANE
EVERY MINUTE, AN URGE TAKES BREATHE TO CUT MY VEINS
BATH IN MY BLOOD AND LAUGH ON MY MISERY
AS I KNOW, ONCE I WILL DIE, MY LIFE WILL CERTAINLY BECOME EASY