Analysis of My own WORST enemy

I feel like I'm my own worst enemy.
As I get older I believe this just might be the end of me.

Perfection with only one flaw as she only see flaws
Everyday I remind her how beautiful she is in person, by text, and on calls

I have always known she is out of my league. It's true, I say it all the time, ask her you'll see.
Just a stepping stone until she realizes what she could be

I have been tired for so long, and begging for eternal sleep.
But she makes me laugh, smile, and we have great conversations that sometimes get too deep.

She makes me not want to work and spend every waking minute just being next to her.
It's feel like my condition is terminal and she is the cure

My subconscious mind has taken the wheel.
Driving us to a point that we dont yet see and can't yet feel.

My life's goal is to have her see
what me and everyone else sees.
Beautiful, smart, funny, whitty and an occasional bitch please!

It has driven me to free her mind of her families neglect
Find new experiences, see beautiful things, maybe make a video