Analysis of the way i know

I loved you the way I know
Showing no silver lining in time
Maybe a bit childish
All I promised you
Freedom, setting you free for me.
The little I’ve given you
Holding back time, indulging myself like a spoiled king.

Look how close we were
Look how close my lies got us.

I loved you the way I know,
take back all those tears
you were going to give me,
find someone else,
before the countdown touches you.

Hear what I’m saying
I loved you the way I know
I despised myself,
for the way I’ve become,
A faithless spirit.

Someday you’ve got to leave,
but leave shreds of a porcelain smile behind....
Fake it til you reach the door
Like I have all those times
I missed you when I knew
you’ll be gone one day.