Analysis of Engaged by thoughts

Engaged by thoughts of void
Relishing in the gray of mist
An empty mind and lost in me
Hollowed in a haze of fits
My eyes are on the floor
As I gather my self-worth
I cannot seem to function
As I am wasted and it hurts

This heart will always feel you
But yet you could not know
My exterior hides a sadness
That refuses to let me grow
I think I've lost my way
As my mind is like a maze
I cannot see before me
As the walls are just a haze

What is it to be positive
As it seems like just a word
I cannot fathom the feelings
When all I feel is hurt
I could try to prosper
But I don't see the point
It will not make me happy
When my mind is out of joint