Analysis of Lost Soul

I wander in the gloomy night,
And search for any ray of light;
But all I see is endless dark,
And all I hear is silence stark.

I do not know how long I've been
A prisoner of this dreadful scene;
I only know that I have sinned,
And that I cannot be forgiven.

I once had hopes, I once had dreams,
I once had love, I once had peace;
But then I made a fatal choice,
And lost them all with one bad deed.

I killed the one who loved me most,
And broke her heart with cruel words;
I did not heed her dying plea,
Nor did I shed a tear for her.

And then I felt a sudden pain,
A piercing stab within my chest;
I fell beside her lifeless form,
And joined her in the realm of death.

But death was not the end for me,
Nor was it a release from woe;
For I was doomed to roam the earth,
And never reach the heaven's glow.

And so I roam, and so I grieve,
And so I suffer endlessly;
I have no hope, I have no rest,
I have no chance of being blessed.

I am the lost, the damned, the cursed,
The spirit that can never soar;
I am the one who cannot die,
And yet can never live no more.