Analysis of Loving Past My Pain

Thunderclouds, lightning and intense harsh rain,
Disappointments, Let Downs, being write-off by family and friends,
All the heart-ache it does bring but I'm still loving past my pain.
The courage to pick myself up and keep on going again and again which in depth holds no end of going through life's reality and loving past my pain.
I've been in love so many times
Some were cruel and some were kind
Through the struggle to have a peace of mind, majority of the time it was my fault in becoming so needy and demanding causing them some distraught
The last relationship was based on lies, deception and severe alibis
A love to me that was so surreal, while he was fake as a two-dollar bill
Caused my heart to bleed and left life-long stains, but I'm still loving past all my pain.