Problematic camp

I miss you so much
I open the phone
To see fucking nothing
Nothing at all

At times I feel lonely
(With)'Out you by my side
Now it's just me, me and me only.
The boredom of myself that I was trying to fight
Did not win the battle, I picked the wrong side,
Sometimes I feel like yelling and tight,
Tight I cleanse my hand in anger and sadness, alright?

I know I did some things and I'm sorry about it,
But sometimes I doubt it,
I doubt what I do, what I feel like I knew,
And I know it's anxiety playing in through ,
Cannot really help it,
Not even myself ,
The happiness, sweetness and feeling of love,
Emotions are the only that're true,
We do have our hiccups , we do and I felt that,
All though I still love you,
And feel like forever,
Forever and ever I'll love you forever.

Right now tho, the feeling of loneliness only,
Has hit me inside into writing this poem,
It might be bit bad and well not constructed ,
But its come from my mind,
And its not that instructed.