I love you

“I was happy in the haze of a drunken hour”
Plays in quiet transition to green hush from that night
The night was miserable, no one locked the never and stop
Stop making death so erring and quote a lady I once witnessed
She once came to my dream and toiled torn memories
She was burning and screamed at sad far love
“Oh lover, can you feel the willow disintegrating?”
“If I fall on this crude earth and my innocence grooms so helpless,
I forget your sweet face, Would you catch me down and gently remind me?”
That dream was so sad I almost forgot I was happy and had you
Had loads of dreams but lingering in these thought
I forgot what you were unconsciously quoting?
Or it was nothing and is quite my nature to be naive to lurking
Since we are here, in my thoughts can you help me?
How do I say “I love you and do you love me?”
On a sullen non-dull breath like a poet whose too much of themselves  
“Two lovers entwined pass me by, and heaven knows…”
Does the lady have a purpose in haunting me?
Is it hush before the swans floating with tears dripping
That creeps them to sing?
Do they have lipsticks in different veiled galaxies for men and women
To kiss in couped chivalry with kindness for swords?
Does the loner get a fine partner in grand Waltz with music
Bleeds loneliness and misery?
“I was happy in the haze of a drunken hour, but heaven knows..”
I have a problem with overthinking but finally i understand
As it ends I brush my hands on cheek and hold your face too kindly
And you disappear completely
And then I understand what you were saying
It was nothing and it wasn’t happening
I don’t like to fuel my lone pair of eyes
But some things are best unsaid unheard unfounded