If I am not in love

If I am not in love
With any one
Because I never
Found somebody that
Would treat me well
Or respect me the way
I want to be respected
THere are lots of people there
That had hurt me also
In the past
Yes I had confronted them
Many times
I don't know
Who I can trust anymore
I am afraid to make a move
I must say that
I am living alone
Without anybody
In my life
Yes I also have lost touch
Of the outside word
I know that I need
To get a life
And start to live again
I know I need people again
Who I  can trust
Also I don't have a easy life
I live a hard life
Here on earth
Every single day
Also I worry a lot
About what people must think
About me
Also nobody told me
That Life would be easy for me
Yes people I know that life
Is hard for me
I sometimes
Say hurtful things to people
Without even thinking
That is a terrible thing that
I do
God give a peace of mind
I also hate
When people bitch at me
That drives me crazy
Yes I am told that
I am not a easy person
To live with