I will slow down my thoughts

I will slow down my thoughts
Because my thoughts are moving fast
I  don't have bad thoughts
On my mind
I  will never hurt myself or anybody else anymore
Because I am getting tired of it
I will let people live their life
And I will live mine
People I know that you got to live your life also
People I got my own problems to solve
Not alone but with the help of my friends
People I need to think positively
People I never think negative thoughts
People I hope you understand that I am a human being like you
I can't believe it is only November
The sun was shining today
It is a perfect day to go for a walk
People I know that God will forgive me for the bad things I done
Now it is the time for you to forgive me also
God I am always forgiving myself for the bad things I do
God I have a book to write my thoughts down
And I do it every day
By filling every page of this book
God I know that actions speaks louder than words
God I know the consequences of my bad behavior
God I have my own battles to fight
People I must fight my battles alone
I feel that I will win those battles
People when I speak to you I promise that I will tell only the truth
I will not lie to you people
People your friendship is very important to me
People I don't want to lose you
Because I would be lonely
And I don't want to be alone
People I appreciate everything you do for me
People you were there when I was sick
People I am so happy that I got your support in my life
People please don't abandoned me now
Because I need you in my life
People when you are sick also I will be there for you
People I will try to control my anger
Before it gets out of control
God deep down I am a good person
People I love for who you are
And I accept the way you are
People my depression got much better
People I don't feel depress the way I used to feel
People I am so happy to be alive every day
And it is God that keeps me alive every day
People I want to worship God every day
People I want to pray for peace now
Because we need peace now
People I don't want to live forever
Because I know that God is in charge of my life
It is God that rules my life and not me
People I am not getting any younger
I am older now
People my youth days are over
People I never drunked in my life
People I will stay sober
People my childhood days are over
And when I was young I had asthma
People I am not the one who tells one thing and do the other
People I never put things off in my life
People can you pick me up when I fall
People if you see me sad can you cheer me up
People teach me to love people
Because I need to know how to love people
People I need to take care of my health
People I can't live without health
People it is time to say good bye to you
Because I am going to bed
People all the trees are bare now for the winter
And winter is on its way
People the birds had migrated now for the winter
And it makes me so sad
Because I won't hear them singing again
People I already traveled to Europe
And I saw many beautiful places
People I live alone in a place I love
People I don't have much money to spare for the poor
Because the money I have I need for myself
To buy food and pay my rent
God I closed my eyes and I meditate every morning when I wake up
People I want to share my poetry with you all
People I don't drink coffee anymore but I drink tea
People I don't know if I will be here
People I  am already planning for tomorrow
People I already suffered so much in my life
With my depression and my diabeties
People I need to take medication for my depression or diabeties
If I want to be well
People summer is now resting
And we will see it next year again
Also the birds will return and they will sing their symphony
There will be lots of sunny days during the summer months
People I must tell you that I love when the birds sing their song
People I always show remorse when I do wrong things
People don't call me crazy because I am not
And it hurts me very much
People please pray for me
And ask God to heal me
People please understand that I don't want to die now
Because I am so young
God please guide me where I am walking
People if I die some day I hope that you all will be there
People I know that you worry a lot about me
And I worry about my life
People we  are never alone because God is always there for me
Today the sun went down already and I saw the beautiful sunset
That took my breath away
People I never accused anybody of anything
I never had called people a thief
People I want to get better each day with my health
People I take good care of my hygiene
Because I don't want to smell badly
I also wear clean clothes on my body each day
People I have my own style of clothes
You may not like my style of clothes
People I will talk slowly when I talk to you
So that you can hear what I am saying
People I want to be heard
People I already made so many sacrifices in my life
It was very hard to do
People I am now sleeping all through the night
And I don't wake up in the middle of the night
The next day when I wake up
I feel rested
People when I sleep I also snore very loud
People I will speak up for myself
Because I need to speak up
When I get angry I must tell people that I am angry
Will people understand that I am angry?
God so many people broke my heart so many times
God I want to ask you to repair my broken heart
People I have so many feelings
And I feel that I have to let my feelings out
When I speak
God I don't judge any body
So I don't want to be judge
God I am always worried about what people thinks about me
God I should stop worrying about what people think about me
God I will continue living my life the best way I can
People we need to love each other and not hate each other
People we need to have respect for each other
People sometimes it is hard to pass the time
There are days that the time past so fast when I am having fun
Friends I am missing you because I haven't  seen you for so long
God I need to be feed now because I am starving
So don't forget to feed me
God I am lost for words
Right now
God all I need is to be with you
God wash my eyes so that I can see clearly
People God will give us peace every day
God I can't get enough of your love
So please God give me more love
So that I can give to those that I love
People I know that you all love me
And I want to thank you all for loving me
God I want to climb the mountain during the winter
And I want to see the blue sky with no clouds
The evergreen are covered with snow
And God I want to tell you that it looks beautiful
A new morning has broken
And I am so excited about it
Just being alive
Breathing that air that is filling up my lungs
My heart is pumping that blood all over my body
People please show your  love to me
God I want to celebrate my life here on earth
God I am not ashamed of my mental illness
God if I had to do the same for you I would my God
I would give my love and a kiss to you
God tell me why life is so complicated
Because it is so complicated
People no matter where you are I will be waiting for you
I know you must follow this path that will take you some place
God I been dreaming away tonight
The only thing I want to do is dream tonight with you God
Because I am so in love with you my God
People I have some self esteem
And myself esteem is very high
People I have recovered from my depression
And I am feeling fine with lots of energy
Now I just have to live my life
To the fullest
God I will not play game with people's feelings
Because that is a dangerous thing to do
God I let you down so many times
And I want to say sorry for doing it
God please understand that I am not selfish
I don't think only about myself
God if I had to choose between peace or war I would chose peace
God the war have killed so many innocent children
We lost so many children already
God I know that you can perform miracles
God I seem all the miracles that you do for the people
God I know that you can't put a price on life
People when you love somebody you should love them all the way
People no one can live without love
People never tell somebody that you hate them
Because that is a bad thing to do
People you need to learn to relax
Because when you are relaxed you will feel better
God love gives me the right to be free
I am living on the edge
And I am saving all my love for you God