The Big D

My minds racing.. And time stops just for a moment, but it seems like an eternity.. My heart broken and my soul  is yearning for a connection that is lost.

I cast my eyes to the skies. Dropped my knees and cry.. Why, why? Why is this happening to me?. Don't lie. I deserved be free. Of These chains that suppressed me. Broken from the verbal emotional beating that I have taken.. But still I breathe in.... Feening for a drink, of water that will purify my life. That my father gave me..

Setting Rage aside. As what once was, 2 worlds now collide and crumble.. And I stumble reaching for a rope to climb out the abyss that I fallen into.. No word said, but Your actions are  like. A bullet blowing through my brain, leaving me dead, and Hopelessly an insane?

I Pray for God to release me from this pain!



“Have faith in God,” Jesus answered. “Truly I tell you, if anyone says to this mountain, ‘Go, throw yourself into the sea,’ and does not doubt in their heart but believes that what they say will happen, it will be done for them. Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours. And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive them, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins.”
Mark 11:22‭-‬25



Falling to my knees  I plead Lord. Please give me the courage and bring love back to me. But there's a silence in the trees as I feel a cool breeze.. The whisper of voice. Wait, son, what? What I in store for you is beyond conceivable.. All you have to do is believe in me. Your father, that brought you from ashes.