Happiness

Can I ask you some questions?
Why do you evade me so often?
Why does it feel like I’d be better off in a coffin?
Why do the ones around me seem to have you so easily?
But why does it feel like you just want to tease me?
Why do you make me question if I’m worth it?
Why does your absence make me feel like I’m living with no purpose?
Why do you always seem so close but somehow so far away?
Why does it feel like when I wake up your goal is to make sure I have a bad day?
Was it something I did in my past life to make me unworthy?
Or were my actions in this life the reason your goal is to hurt me?
Why do I pray at night that one day I will have you?
And why does it feel like you laugh when I ask you?
Why do you see my tears and my pain and the hurt eating at my body and brain and still sit there and continue to play your game?
Am I just not worthy of you?