Silently Numb

I woke up in the morning,
And she was there.
Beautiful brown eyes,
And long brown hair.

How could she be smiling,
And her eyes not red.
I was very surprised,
That she was not dead.

I don’t understand why,
She is attracted to me.
Her life is so aimless,
Always a reckless spree.

Overindulgence,
Abuse, and excess,
Are somehow ignored,
When she would undress.

But I know somewhere inside,
Beyond the perpetual disgrace,
Is a beautiful soul,
Fighting to find its place.

She is a user,
But deep inside she’s not a loser.
Please get better,
And maybe we can be together.

But I don’t think she will stop,
I don’t think she knows how.
Her life will always be guided,
In the direction her demons allow.

Now, she gets silently numb,
And she doesn’t care.
She knows she can’t go,
So she finds a way there.