Analysis of Two Months

Yesterday I made a mistake and looked at the date,
It scorned my rare blissful mood and evoked my lonely fate.
I’ve been grappling the darkness for too long it seems,
Because now even you only patron my dreams.

You’ve invaded my thoughts day in and day out,
And that night is all I can think about.
The anxiety I felt at the gas station as I sat,
 With the weight of the world, my hat.
The room loud from the clock’s sharp chyme,
As you ran out of time.

I analyze my last moments with you, when I have time to spend,
 Wishing somehow, I could’ve changed your story’s end.
Your mind was clear, your body betrayed you,
There was nothing anyone could do.
I watched as you slipped away,
Only two days before your birthday.

Did you hear the words I read?
My voice was weak, and you were shaking in bed.
Thoughts like these keep me awake,
That paper took everything from me to make.
It haunts me that I cannot express to you my gratitude,
For all the generosity you gave with great magnitude.

It’s been exactly two months since I talked to you last,
You told me to keep going despite the dark cast.
The pain like smoke lingers, making it still feel like yesterday,
But as you would say, yesterday is yesterday and today is today.