Losing you

I cried when I held you in my arms even though it was hard for me to cry ,
I use to ask God all the time why did you have to die ?,
Even though I still don’t understand I try to wipe my eyes .
I heard about your sickness at 20 weeks pregnant , my ultrasound appointment and oh was it scary ,
An emotional roller coaster I had to go through just to present you in this world , I will never forget the day I end up losing my baby boy ,
Hearing the doctors say they couldn’t save you broke my heart , I wish even life itself couldn’t keep us apart ,
Losing you took a apart of me and sometimes I can’t deal  , knowing I couldn’t see you grow up or
Hearing how you feel ,
It broke me son son and mommy’s finally healing ❤️‍