The Breaking point

WAR I make against myself.
This weak version of me must decease
Peace.

Everyday is a struggle.
This version of me is winning daily;
causing me to front and fake a role
losing my soul, sinning out of control.
Whoa unto this contradiction;
This person you see in front of you.
Confidence has gone out the window
Courage is non existent

Where has my voice gone?
 my passion has escaped.
my joy has left me.
This is the breaking point.
It’s freedom time like lauryn Hill.

This is when I throw my hands in the air
I CANNOT take this anymore.
 I hurt myself by not being myself.
Today is the day I start to fight back.
Today is the day I beat my fist against my chest.
Today is the day I take back myself.

I Declare WAR. I speak when the voices tell me otherwise
I get back up whenever I fall.
I picked up my cross and started to walk.
I picked up my Sword and started to MAKE WAR!

Today is the day I say, “I LOVE ME.’’
Today is the day I tell myself, “I am STRONG”
TODAY IS THE BREAKING POINT.

I ROAR like a Lion
I start marching to Zion, If I don’t win
then I die over and over until then.
Jeshurun is questioning, “Where have I gone?”
I been gone far to long.
I been walking on the wide road
Time for me to start walking HOME.

I REBEL against this silentness
I speak up so that you hear this
I’m trying to become immaculate
     Transformation to my prime
Seeking perfection, freedom, breaking
The chains;  fighting through the pain.

I’m done with people pleasing
Now I’m fighting praising YAH!
I’m done running; hiding.
Today I stand up to my FEARS!
I tell the night terrors, “YOU DO NOT CONTROL ME.”
I tell the enemies, “ Get thee behind me.”

LET ME GO!
This is my point of no return.
This is me turning around.
This is me crying out for help.
HELP ME!
I cannot fight this good fight alone.
My soul thirst
I won’t let my life get no worse
Father please hear my CRY.