Still I'm love

The pain is still fresh from your absence. I take a deep breath trying to figure out what happened. I'm in the deep end of my sadness. I exhale quick coughing trying to mask it. Nothing ever helps to get past it. Your like a tattoo on my brain how'd that happen. Trying to maintain through the madness. But I cannot be the same.  I can't take the way I'm chained. So many times that I've been broken but this time was not the same can't get past it. Drastic. The levels of despair. I will no longer feel your touch I will no longer smell your hair. Awear. But difficult to accept. Foreign heart filled with regret while my throat lived in a knot my tears drop do for you I can't forget.