my darkness
There is a Darkness in me
Hidden very deep inside
Called the ‘Invisible illness’
Why be a coward and hide?
Who are you my Darkness?
Why do you always hide?
Cause me such pain
Let no one by my side
Who are you my ‘Darkness’?
Have I myself to blame?
Why make me so broken
Each day feels the same
I feel so worthless
You’ve taken my soul
Who are you my 'Darkness'?
And who's in control?
Did I give you control?
Maybe I did along the way
Who are you my 'Darkness'?
Who I live with each day
You never warn me
You come with an aim
You take my energy
Cause me significant pain
Don’t ask my permission
You blacken my heart
You make me feel sick
I know we can’t part
Born with you Darkness
Your intentions I now see
You take away my light
Won’t let me be free
It's time for a change
Time I started to fight
Time to take control
And walk to my light
I will learn to understand
Try to embrace you I will
Learn to switch my light on
Not just lie and be still
I know you can kill
I know you can win
I know you can hurt
But I refuse to give in
I am unable to predict
Those days that are grey
I will never be cured
How can I find my way?
There’s many who doubt
Many who don’t believe
Why would I make it up?!
What could I achieve?
To those who are haters
To those that just blame
To those who will doubt
You are causing more pain
Stop being so harsh
We are not to blame!
1 in 6 people suffer
Why not shout it’s name
Diabetes and Heart disease
High blood pressure too
Many physical conditions
See differently you do
Why should we hide?
Made to feel this shame
Hiding us for years
Causing us significant pain
Families disapproving looks
Friends disappointing eyes
Told to just ‘shake it off’
Told to just 'be more wise'!
STOP saying ‘shake it off’
Please open your heart
How can you be so cold?
Where do I even start?
I know I can change
I know I can live
I want to help others
Know hope I can give
I will not forget the day
When I decided to go
When Darkness had won
Death I wanted to know
Calmly that day I drove
Without emotion or fear
Down the cliff edge I slid
Without shedding one tear
Suicide attempts before
But this was no try
I did not ‘try’ to go
I really wanted to die
Two angels were passing
Mental Health Nurses they be
Saw me jump over the edge
Heading down to the sea
Landed on a ledge below
Why didn’t I die?!
So I got up again
Come on, one more try
They refused to give in
Shouting ‘Please stop!’
They thought I was gone
As they saw me just drop
The shouting had caused
The fog started to clear
In my head suddenly
My son’s face appeared
I would ruin his life
I would ultimately cause
Him to feel not enough
His life would just pause
Without nurses and my son
I truly believe I would be
Together with my darkness
Deep down under the sea
No more pain
No more tear
No more hurt
No more fear
But I have decided now
To make a change with you
To make a change for us
This I know we can do
So I shout your name
Let the healing begin
Your name is DEPRESSION
You’re evil but not a sin
Born you are part of me
Something I cannot cure
But this I can tell you
As I know this for sure
If you suffer like me
Then listen if you may
Stand up to your Darkness
Learn to have your say
Do not feel ashamed
Do not hide away
For this is who you are
Fight forward each day
About this poem
It is the poem I wrote after my suicide attempt which should have killed me but I survived randomly. The word 'darkness' refers to my depression and about society judging acute conditions different to mental health conditions
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Submitted by watsondebra078 on November 10, 2023
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