Me

Me?

No, it’s never me
I’m at the second not even the third option
I’m the last option

Many words to describe me
Like fat, ugly, funny and loud
These are true
Right?

Sometimes it makes me cry
But I gotta keep it pushing
For my friends
And family
for them

Am I really me?
Or am I just acting?
Just trying to keep it together

As a kid, I was me
But why not now?

I’m numb
I cry
Wishing to be normal

Wishing to be like those
Really pretty actors

I hate being me
Why can’t I be pretty?
Why can I be skinny?

I wish I had-
A normal body

My body
I hate it
I hate it
i really hate it
In every shape and form.

By Emerly Evans