This Is For Me

Whenever I'm Contemplating Suicide,
This Is For Me
See This Is For The Moments When I'm Alone With Emotions So Cold That It Leaves Me Mentally Frozen
When I'm Hurt & Alone With My Heart Open & Broken
When Love Seems Like It's None Existing & My Heart Is Always Aching When
I'm Drowning In An Ocean Of Hopelessness & Soaking In My Own Misery
When My Body Is Weak With No Energy When I Lose My Mind & I Feel Lost In This World,
I'll Be Strong & Pull Through On My Own,
This Is For All The Moments When My Weakness Is Taking Over & The People I Love The Most Just Treats Me Like I'm Nothing
When I Want Just Want Give Up On Life Because Every Time I Try To Be & Feel Loved I Recieve & Feel Nothing But Fake Love & Self Hate
When I Feel Like People Treat Me Like I Don't Exist
See This Is For All The Moments When I Feel Like Nobody Understands Me & They Aren't Where I Stand & They Don't Comprehend They're Just Judging Me From The Outside In,
When People Knock Me,
Doubt Me & Hurt Me Then Leave Me All On My Own Like I'm Not Even They're Equal & Gladly Defeat Me Then Laugh In My Face
When I Feel All Alone,
When I'm So Outta Place & People Can't Relate To My Pain
They Don't Feel How I Feel
But I Won't Allow Myself To Get Lost & Never Let People's Ignorance Cost Me My Life
I Know I Can Make It,
I Just Gotta Keep My Head Up,
Stay Strong & Don't Give Up Because I Know That There's Always A Rainbow After Every Storm.
This Is For When People Whisper & Talk About Me & Make Me Feel Wrong For Being Myself
This For When I'm Feeling Feel Like Nothing But A Memory That No One Will Remember,
Care About Or Even Be Relieved.
See I Know How It Feels,
I've Been Here Before,
I've Been In A Dark Place With My Heart Broken & Hurt
I've Felt Worthless & Shattered,
I've Been Nothing To People,
I Know What It's Like To Have To Force People To Notice Me.
This Is For When I Feel So Invisible That I'm Not Even Sure That I Even Exist To The Point Where I Want To Commit Suicide Just To See If I'm Real
Trying To Numb Myself With Pills & Pretend To Be Happy Just To Hide What I Feel & Wash Away The Pain In Hope's Of Rejecting It Afterwards.
I Live Everyday Wishing I Could Rewind My Life Backwards Because I Wanna Figure Out Where Did I Go Wrong Cause Everything In My Life Just Hasn't Been Right For So Long.
I Know How It Feels So This Is For The Little Girl Inside
If You're Thinking Of It Now
If You're Wanting To Die
If You're Thinking It Out
I Want You To Know That You Are So Much More Than You Think You Are In This Moment
& You'll Never Be Able To Know & See How Great You Really Are If You Give Up
So Don't Give Up On You Because I Won't Give Up On You & I Won't Give Up On Us Or Allow Us To Give Up On Ourselves.