Lost but Found

If I had words to describe the way you grabbed me up and kept me alive I'd tell the world of your wonder and promise them they'd never go under. If I had the words, I'd tell them how you saved me just in time, I was to the point of losing my mind. I should be dead that's the one thing for sure. I should be gone and never more. Drugs have bound me my entire life and the man I was with wanted to kill me with a knife. He wanted to bury me in the backyard and was always screaming at me, he would point at his head and whisper"look at me, why don't You see? I'm going to get you where it hurts, you are nothing then spit on me and call me dirt.  To the world he loved me and our children but when the door shut we would be terrified of what was in him. Standing up for my children and making sure he didn't harm them was only thing keeping me through. Never realizing God, the whole time it wasn't me. It was You. Being choked, hit and watching my children suffer. It was killing them seeing this done to their mother. Get out, come back. Get out, come back he did 100 times a day then God answered and showed me a way. A way to get out. A way to set my children free. Tha k you Jesus for your love and mercy. It's hard at times being all alone but I thank God for opening my eyes and giving my children a new home.  Dealing with this trauma is the scariest thing I've ever faced praying trusting and knowing in what God says. He made me a fighter, a survivor over all. There is no task for Him that is too small. Sometimes I get so weak in my mind I freeze up and just wanna die. He never lets me go no matter how bad it gets, he's got his angels around me for I am truly blessed.