a life full of mistakes

Everyday people hide form the world.  Always praying for some kind of peace in life.  Waiting for the fighting inside of my self to come to an end and the feeling of being broken inside and damaged that there’s nothing that will fix me.  So the only way to escape the hell is to just keep drinking and getting high.  
While waiting for someone to save them from themselves and knowing that there’s no one in this world who cares enough too.  Just keep getting used by the world.  There’s no reasons to hold into this life that’s full of mistakes and anger inside.   
Only trying to keep everything inside so no one will see the real person.  The damaged drunk and druggie.  Being scared of  the world around them and seeing all the broken and missing pieces.  Praying for just a little love and caring to come and break down the walls of hurt.  While waiting for a sign in life.