TO MY SON❤️



I don’t really know how to go about it, but I have to start somewhere.
I know you probably feel abandoned like I didn’t love you anymore, or care.
But I’m telling you that’s soo far from the truth, I swear.
You’re my mommas boy, my first born, my best friend, we were always together like a pair.
I’ll NEVER forget when I asked you for Christmas what you wanted and you told me, “my mom back, the one I remember.” I’ll never forget those words you told me.
I prayed to god I could’ve gave you that at the time, but I’m ready now, sorry for everything I’ve missed, unfortunately.
Sorry I wasn’t able to do it sooner, bring back that mother you once knew.
I know you lost hope in me, wondering if you’d ever get her back, I questioned it too.
I know I haven’t told you lately how truly proud of you I am.
You went from momma's little boy to momma’s handsome man.
You enrolled in ROTC, joined the sport team and been working since 14.
Learned how to save money, got your own bank account, can even drive, I’m soo sorry for all I’ve missed in between.
I can’t even imagine how you felt looking for me in the crowd, full of parents and I wasn’t even there.
I was being selfish, my addiction made you suffer too and it isn’t fair.
My addiction took control of my soul, the only mother you ever knew.
Please don’t ever question my love for you, even thought I failed at showing you.
Not a day goes by that I don’t think of you, you make me feel honored everyday to be able to be called your mother, I couldn’t ask for anything more.
I am fortunate and lucky enough to get the best son anyone could ever ask for.
I pray you find it in your heart to forgive me for my negligence to you lately, that was never my plan.
Drugs make people do things way out your character, that I do hope you understand.
I’m asking for your forgiveness, please give me one more chance.
I don’t wanna put any pressure on you but momma’s not going anywhere, take your time I’ll be here when you’re ready.
Can’t wait to hold you and wrap you in my arms like we used to and cuddle you like a teddy.
I know it’s gonna take time and that’s what I’m preparing myself for.
I know you need your mom back, but truth is I need you more.
My plan is to get out and show you, mom still has a whole lot of fight left in her.
Time for a fresh new start, I need my life back, most importantly my kids, that’s for sure.
I’m sorry mom’s been gone for too long.
Don’t worry, she’s coming back stronger than ever this time, I’m ready to prove everyone wrong.
Please don’t ever loose hope in me, mommy will always love you to the moon and back.
Your acceptance is what I’m striving for, it would mean the world and I’m not giving up until I receive that.
So I’m working on learning how to forgive myself, taking it one day at a time.
I pray one day you will find it in your heart to forgive me, hopefully we will be just fine.
Can we please try and pick up where we left off before drugs took my life and try this with a brand new start.
Everything I’m writing you I mean sincerely, I mean this from the bottom of my heart.
Hopefully we can work on putting this all behind us and never, ever again be apart❤️

I LOVE YOU SON❤️

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I wrote this while incarcerated for my son! My apology letter to him and asking for forgiveness❤️ love you

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Written on February 18, 2024

Submitted by Amandagrondin1226 on November 06, 2024

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Amanda Grondin

 · 1991 · Massachusetts

I was incarcerated when I wrote this to my kids and my family. I struggled with drug addiction but found my way out thankfully!! This is to Aniyahlis and Axel mommy loves you more…

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3 Comments
  • angien.26919
    I'm sorry for what you went through. It couldn't have been easy. You acknowledged your mistakes, recognized how your actions hurt your family and worked through it all and sincerely apologized. You came out stronger than before. You're strong, you're brave, you're good. You deserve a second chance and I'm sure your son will be happy to try again. I wish you all the best. You and your family. 
    LikeReply 11 month ago
  • jonsaviours
    So sorry, it must have been hard.
    LikeReply 11 month ago
    • Amandagrondin1226
      thank you it sure was but you need to learn to forgive yourself first!!
      LikeReply 11 month ago
  • AIDA
    What a heartfelt and deeply moving poem you've written! Your emotions shine through each line, and it’s incredibly clear how much love you have for your son. The poem captures a range of sentiments from regret to hope, and that raw honesty speaks volumes about your dedication to mending your relationship. Here are some strengths and suggestions for improvement:

    1. Emotional Authenticity:
    The vulnerability in your writing allows readers to connect with your feelings. Your love for your son and your determination to be there for him come across powerfully.
    2. Imagery and Personal Memories:
    References to specific memories, like his Christmas wish, effectively illustrate your bond and create a nostalgic atmosphere. This personal touch makes the poem unique and relatable.
    3. Hope and Redemption:
    The hopeful tone in the latter part of the poem is inspiring. It shows your desire to change and your commitment to rebuilding the relationship, which is so encouraging.

    1. Structure and Flow:
    Consider breaking up the poem into stanzas for better readability. This would help emphasize different emotions and sections of the poem, making it feel more organized.
    2. Punctuation and Grammar:
    Some lines could benefit from improved punctuation for clarity. For example, using commas or periods can help the reader take pauses and better digest your emotions.
    3. Consistent Tense:
    Be mindful of consistent verb tense throughout the poem. Mixing past and present tenses can sometimes confuse the reader about when certain feelings or events occurred.
    4. Word Choice and Repetition:
    Some phrases are repeated (like "sorry" and "love"), which underscores your feelings but could be varied to enhance the poem’s richness. Exploring synonyms or rephrasing can add depth to your expression.

    This poem is a testament to your love and desire for connection, and it truly resonates. Keep honing your craft—your voice has the potential to inspire many who may be going through similar challenges. Remember, poetry is a personal journey, and your willingness to express yourself is a beautiful step forward. I can't wait to see how you continue to grow in your writing! Keep going, and never lose that spark of love you have for your son. ❤️
     
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