Unspoken

Unspoken
I never spoke the words I harbored,
Fear bound my hands, the rope tightened at my throat.
Our anchor lines tangled in the undertow—
I cut yours and watched you drift,
Wondering why I let you go.
With a change of heart, I hoisted my sail,
But the winds tore us apart.
Waves crashed against the bow—
Too high to withstand.

Nights stretch long, frigid as ocean depths.
I am lost without you, submerged in solitude.
Pain crashes like relentless waves,
Salty air stung my cheeks,
Dragging hope beneath the tide.
No one sees the storm gathering strength—
My heart, a tempest in the open sea.

I mask my pain,
Gripping tight as the boom jerks in the wind’s fury,
Steadying my feet as the ship heaves beneath me.
The wind is real, my grip is tight—
I dig for strength; my hands slip—
One finger at a time,
I fear I’ll sink to the ocean floor.

Why didn’t I share my fears, my truths?
Why did I let your ship drift away from me?
Now my sail is tattered, old glory torn,
And you’re not here to stitch it back together.
Lonely nights bleed into empty days,
Reliving a love that never was.

I miss you with every rocking wave—
Swamped by fear,
A current pulls me under,
Drowning in memories I wish were real.
A ghost of what could have been
Pulls me beneath icy waters.
But only I know the turbulence I sail in.

I miss you—
Each wave, a reminder of what I lost.

I carry your smile, fragile as a shell lost in the tide.
Each memory, razor-sharp,
Tearing deep beneath the skin, like a lure’s barbed hook.
I can’t live without you.
Saltwater stings my wounds.
I cry into the wind,
But the wind steals my tears.
Would you have come back if I’d cast your heart a net,
If silence hadn’t changed the current between our sails?

My soul is as blue as the deepest sea.
Would you have saved me if you knew my truth,
Like a sinking ship, flooded,
Bow underwater—
Would you have pulled me from the wreckage?

Days drag on, the night watch exhausts me—

I think of you,
Of what we could have been.

I ache with each swell that rocks my boat,
Reminded of your absence in every wave.
Like the vast sea, I’m lost within,
Drowning in the ocean of what never was,
Longing for the tide that brought you near.
Our anchor lines intertwined,
Now treading the abyss of regret.

Bound by vows, nautical miles apart—
Adrift without you,
Alone with my unspoken truth,
Forever lost at sea.