Easy for You.

I want to know how it was done so quickly
Were you staying awake for hours
How was it so easy
When I feel these notions
I grow nauseous
I grow queasy
The fragments of my past lash back out at me
And there I stare in silence at the ceiling
Hoping this "too shall pass", this "too shall pass"
I'm screaming
Banging my head against the pillow
I became so engrained in
It's kind of my living vessel
I'm in so much regret
This agony is merciless
It arrests me and puts me in a cell
Imprisoning me on an island called hell
And when I ask how it was so easy
They'll say I cried wolf
That I should've kissed the sand
And let the current let me drift
Drift me so far away
Because then they would've assumed something else
They wouldn't of believed me if I said the truth
They'd say it was just another false alarm
The panic bar has already reached it's max
And you'd interject to my scheme
"You never caught them off guard!"
That my first mistake is being honest
That you can't show your feelings raw
It breaks you into those fragments
And it turns you into a skipping track
You know, it becomes a nuisance
The repetition just keeps you playing fiddle
And the signal comes back to me
When will my head stop zooming
How do I overthrow the raging wrath that leaves me feeling so little
A curse in the path of destruction
An implosion of all the commotion
That makes everything come crashing down
Beating me more into a pulp
And I wouldn't ever want it to be contagious
Because that feeling of being nauseous is returning
How was it so easy for you to do it
What made you do it so quickly