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Interlude
Dear God I’m Boxed in. Can’t breathe.  Try to move but my body seizes. Fall to my knees and start praying to Jesus.  Our Heavenly Father who art in heaven...send me a sign. The hour glass is empty but I need more time. I can’t leave this earth without leaving a mark. But right now I feel like I’m in ocean drowning surrounded by sharks.

There out for blood.
But I know you get the final say.  Help me Open up some doors. That I’ve held closed. Help me open up my heart and fill it with light and joy.
Heal these wounds so that I no longer bleed. So these sharks surrounding me. Will leave. Amen.

I was looking for a way out couldn’t see the light. Then a trip to emergency saved my life.

No more being in so much pain that you pray for god to take you. My pain is released now. It was a fight that you wouldn’t believe so pls don’t look at me like I’m weak.
Because you don’t know the strength it took to get here. I’ve been through hell and back. Some people don’t come back from this. Some people take their lives.

It’s a deadly isolating disease and I won’t be ashamed to say that I beat it. Because there was years that I thought I didn’t want to be here.