When I say I love you

When i say i love you!
When i said I loved you the very first time to your face my heart nearly exploded from fear!
It took every piece of my broken heart to say I love you!
To tell a dream in real life that you loved them since you first met is one of the most frightening things to ever ask of yourself!
As the fear grips you to the core you stop every thing that keeps you alive!
Holding your breath in anticipation of what comes after an I love you that great!
Will they be elated to know how you feel inside?
Love that deep can only end with heartache!
Caused by one not carrying the same flame of passion as the other!
Or due to one being lost to the sands of time!
When i spoke my very first I love you as i stood before you I lost more then you could possibly ever imagine!
First i lost the fear of the act itself!
Next i lost my fear of rejection as you said you loved me too!