Cries for help

Silenced in my own self
Screaming there for resolution.
Not expecting any miracles
From which people can't see.
 up, and down the rollercoaster goes
Where it stops nobody knows...
 I keep my distant when I want you near.
Crying watching the result
Of you gone, and not here.
 to much for me...more for you.
Why should I want people
To stop what their doing?...
Selfishness of wanting someone to see
Pass this brick wall I paved around me.
 I am no picnic
When im breathing in this pain.
I push all away which makes me
Keep my distant when I want you near.
Crying watching the result
Of you gone, and not here.