Lack Of Courage

Most days I feel
 Like I am
 Losing so much time
 Sitting
 Waiting
 Hoping
 For you to change

 Never knowing quite for sure
 If it is me or you that must change

 Always believed that by
 Not moving
 Making no decision
 Is the same as making one

 Wondering if it is due to my lack of strength
 Or no courage
 To take those hits
 That will happen if I choose
 To move
 Now

 Wish I knew if this was truly my choice
 Or one made only by lack of my courage