Why me?

Why me?
 for I have mistreated you
 I have pulled at the hollow roots that deceive you
 I have abandoned you
and placed you without a comforting night to hold onto
 I have excluded you from my eyelids
 how heavy they are already
 my heart not whole enough to carry
 or to survive through
 only touched but not seen
 for these eyes would burn
 for there would be no more of me
 to the blood in my arms, you must lift me
 the silent fire would bite

 Why me?
 for I am average
 with full lips and soft skin
 a mouth with drowning passion
 a sacred body that seems light
 but never empty
 cold eyes, warm eyes, closed eyes, scary
 a lively opening to your hard lust
 caressing touch and wet tongue
 if only I had more
 this sacred fairytale
 this parallel world of color, of diversity
 but of course, I am only
 the sweetest dream you may never wake up to