Smile Missed

For each scar that I carry aren’t the same
I find myself only to blame.
 Screaming inside but not one soul hears,
poisoning my body trying to stop the tears.
 Gave up the one and only thing I adore,
but for him I wanted so much more.
 That smile etched into my mind and soul
years gone by mind taken a toll.
 My mind is my own prison hell,
placed in chains and shackles given no bail.
 Hours I sit and staring off in wonder,
is he like me does he just sit around and ponder?
 Reasons of mine you may not understand,
with these cards he has a better hand.
 Hope held on to, dare I say
to see that smile again one sunny day.