Love hurts

Time has gone and I'm still nursing my feelings
I'm walking all alone in the road of pain
A road filled with clutches of stress , overthinking and overthinking why you went awa
It's dangerous they say but what can I possibly do
I'm a victim of my own invention
It has no end legit it is immune to destruction
I recall every moment we spent together this makes me grow wings
I can fly a little higher but I fall again
It's not gravity but the burden of unexplained feelings with millions of qntns seeking hidden answer
The mystery of teen life unfounded but profound it's a menace to loners
Even though I had to show you the door
I knew it was my fall
Back to my dark lifeless form where I had noone to cry to even though I never shed a tear
It's the emotions triggered by my childhood demons you used to slay
And it's a miracle if I survive longer to see my kids
I'm overwhelmed with what happened to us
Honestly I never believed in our end .but truely I saw it coming
As the dark clouds cover me serenity overshadowed my desire to love again
Painful memories same thoughts of another heartbreak no I don't need to take another glimpse of what love is not again
I said to myself let me be the testimony of what a failure in love is
If it was about a medal sure I would be the reigning champion indeed
I am a monster of myself
It's these feelings of you that never end
Even so I don't want you back
It's a crime in the loners world to have you back
I let you go that's ok

Lone Walker