Are you kidding me!

I am suffocating unable to catch my breath it's tighten up sec by sec and by a min ima be dead, all of a sudden I feel a gush of air filling my lungs without me breathing and barely catching my breath, to realize I should've just stopped resisting and left from here to a better place where there is no pain no sadness pure joy and happiness, I escape the madness this world has bestowed upon us, that we have no choice but to repent for our sins, duh, I see all kinds of little balls of cushions and pins, I'm looking for anyway out of this nightmare that I do not think there is anymore flares that use to scare me so I leap into a darkness and grey atmosphere and as loud that I am yelling and screaming no one seems to care let alone hear but an old lady whispering "O' My Dear".....