Slimeball

Dweeb, dufus, pervert

Hated, bullied

Bruised battered ego

Skeezeball, nasty little boy

Disgusting filthy little puke of a child

It's going to take everything within me to battle this spirit

The spirit of death which wants my life to be over and done with

Finished

They hated me. Maybe they still do. What is truth and which are the lies?

I feel less than the gum under a moved upon shoe

Stuck to the sidewalk

There is lifelessness left in my eyes from the pain of having to walk with these burdens of shame and error, the sin nature of man

I'm so weak

This is so dark

Where is God?

Please, Jesus. You must be real. Please save me. Have mercy on this torn, ragged, beaten and demented soul. Please. You must.