CEO

I wish I had known that  he would steal my innocence.  I never would have let myself fall.  But it was a weapon for him, my naiveness.  My innocent worldview kept me from seeing anything other than a broken man who needed love.  He indeed was broken, but he doesn't know how to love anything or anyone more than himself.  He is too insecure to let himself be loved and actually accept it.  All he knows now to do is put up defensive walls and tear down the "enemy" who supposedly hurt him.  In reality, he constantly attacked and deeply hurt the person who loved him more than anything for things I never did. I still don't know whether he actually believed them or not.  But it doesn't matter.  Either way, he was lying to himself to try and justify all the times he had betrayed me.  But he couldn't outrun his own guilt.  I still love the broken man he is.  But I have to love him from a distance now.  He is my Kryptonite.  He will never do anything but hurt me.  Trying to move on is painful.  How do you dig someone so deeply  out of your soul?