Repeat

Like a broken record singing the same song
   My life is on repeat….
 But you try to brush it off like it’s not that deep…excuse after excuse is just another way of lying….mind and soul so over it I’m not even crying….don’t even know that every time my heart tear…The same mistake and  you say you really care…After all you put me though how don’t you even fear losing me…

So sick of hearing the same shit…just like a   broken record that just wont quit… it’s like your always on repeat…I dare you try to make it seem as if even wasn’t that deep…excuses excuses it’s just another way to lie….I  know I’m over it when I can’t even cry… like why do you have me going in circles….when I’m in the race trying to get to the final hurdle…So I guess their is no control….it’s like your past has  you in a tight hold…I’m just tired of not being able to trust you… all that work, and progress made in therapy… for what and this is what you do…. Promises you made was any of them even true? How can you downgrade what I have been through…. I won’t allow this to continue to chip away my womanhood…. That’s something you never understood… every time when I think things are going all good…. But at the end we’re never where we should…

I’m so tired of going through the same shit…but it’s so fucking hard to give up and quit….I have my faults but I don’t deserve the hurt that you caused me….it’s like ur begging to be set free…feet stuck I can’t seem to walk away….but how much more can I take if I stay….didn’t even really asked for my forgiveness….all nonchalant like it wasn’t any of my business…