what am I thinking?

i swear i don’t mean to,
but i always pick the wrong guy.
charming on the surface,
a whole mess underneath.
still, here i am,
falling again like i don’t know better.

i see it coming from a mile away,
but i let it happen anyway.
i know this isn’t going to end well,
but he says all the right things,
and i’m in before i even realize
what am i thinking?

meanwhile, there’s this guy
who texts me first, checks in on me,
always there, always sweet.
but somehow, i don’t know,
i’m just not into it like i should be
what am i thinking?

my friends shake their heads,
softly scolding me with concern,
“why do you keep talking to these guys?
you deserve so much better.”
but i laugh it off,
like i’ve got it all figured out
what am i thinking?

it’s kinda messed up,
how i go for the same thing.
the ones who keep me guessing,
who never make me feel good for long.
and then i wonder why i’m upset
what am i thinking?

then there are the quiet ones,
who treat me like i’m worth something,
and i push them away,
like i don’t even see what’s right in front of me.
it’s like i can’t handle what’s good for me
what am i thinking?

i tell myself this time will be different,
but it never is.
he’s got that look, that vibe,
and i’m gone before i know what hit me.
maybe one day, i’ll figure it out,
but for now, i keep falling
for the same old mistakes
what am i thinking?