Forgive Me

Having you beside me was the main happiness for me
Trust me son my happiness to you was not like other
Happiness I had before since you were too little

I always let you outside seeing you playing with other kids

And wining over them most of times and growing up front of my eyes
Step by step night and day but sometimes I would not let you
Playing far away from me is just because I will be worry about you

Of seeing you bleeding off your body like you father was
When he came back home from the car bomb he knocked the door and felt off to death
With his body bleeding all around him by the time you are growing up

 you are getting the  similarity of your father and being a successfully man
In studies or playing games
my heart conferment me to  move away from me

To study in higher level of education put
 you told me that one day you will be back sooner then late
To see me before the steps of death take me away from the ground

 so I always start sharing my happiness from
The past memories that I had them with you to keep myself awake and believing that
You would come back even if those years seems

Would not pass easily by me alone because
I have not receiving messages from you during the whole years and tomorrow
Is your 25th birthday I waited for the past four years

So would you accept my apologize
First because I did not believing your words to and I and you will be
 Coming tomorrow at the day of your birthday

Forgive me son just forgive me of letting you out
 The whole four years because God took you to
The heaven before I open the gate of my heart

 To fill your heart with my love to you
Put I ended up seeing back to me in sepulchre
With a papers telling me that you got killed of a car bomb

in the first day when you start your high level education
I know that my tears would not change anything so
forgive me so I can reach you up in the sky with your father in paradise

 22/06/2012

 NOTE:
 ( this poem is for every mother in Iraq my homeland who loss a son or husband from any type terrorist acts ) Thank You