Night terrors

The immense pain as a look in the mirror to see him so unhappy, eyes hollow like a corpse, The silence depressed me. It wasn't the silence of silence, but my own…
My brain full of pain as if flaming arrows burned my eyes, I screamed loud, loud enough to break glass, but it was in the void of my mind, which broke me…. I am broken too lost to be helped or learn love… the alcohol and drugs I use for distraction… I don’t want death… for the pain I feel is pleasure a twisted mind game of bdsm… crying in silence as the night fades away, to wake up and repeat my routine….
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