Underwater and I still can’t breathe.
Isn’t that what I always say?
Yet here I am,
Still stuck on the surface.
My feet are planted here.
It’s like the ocean somehow did a reversal.
The sea has become my escape,
My paradise.
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Someone once asked me, “why do you look down all the time?”
I replied, “I feel as though I am not worthy to look straight ahead of me.”
“Instead of looking down or straight in front of you, why don’t you look up?” They spoke.
As I did,
The... – by Elijah Ramos | 122 Views added 1 month ago
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You stole my heart.
Took it to uncharted destinations.
Wrapped it up in a web of lies;
So thick, reality was erratically disproportionate.
I’ve been stuck here in such a jaded place.
The walls are closing in and you’re nowhere near.
You left... – by Elijah Ramos | 9 Views added 4 months ago
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I’m staring at your Polaroid
Laying on this rain-stained concrete
Pulling at my heart strings
Your smile that’s fading
I’ve been playing along as this Marionette
All decisions made final by the sound of your voice
You’ve controlled me to a... – by Elijah Ramos | 13 Views added 4 months ago
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Have you found a way
To unravel all of my seams
Every stitch sown tells a story
That’ll leave a lasting impression
Immune to your poison
Yet I’m left here still staggering
Hardly unraveled
What have you done to me
Shell shocked and petrified... – by Elijah Ramos | 2 Views added 4 months ago
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Unravel
Unravel what is left of me
Tethered to a world that’s become inescapable
Distort my vision
Leave my breath running ragged
Tear me asunder
With this daily dose of poison
Unravel me
And all of my worn out seams
Fill my lung’s capacity... – by Elijah Ramos | 4 Views added 4 months ago
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Here on this ledge,
A moment to myself.
Where I want to be
Is quite a distance away,
A place I cannot reach.
Temptation taking hold of me.
One more step,
And these waves will get the whole of me.
Here on this ledge,
Searching for... – by Elijah Ramos | 9 Views added 5 months ago
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Day after day, I see the same old shadow.
Misguided and distrusting.
Another side of me, locked in a coffin six feet deep.
Yet a silhouette still chases me.
Tormenting my peripheral vision, has the Reaper come to stalk my doorstep?
My back is... – by Elijah Ramos | 14 Views added 5 months ago
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They stare as if they don’t believe.
Could this be a facade or the real thing?
I’ll tell them that it’s me,
Because who else could it be?
Gentle smiles and rolling laughter.
Blending in like a chameleon.
Giving out what I thought was my... – by Elijah Ramos | 7 Views added 6 months ago
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One foot out the door.
More out than in.
How much longer can this take?
We all have baggage, but none weigh as heavy as the boulders placed in mine.
I give.
Give and I give.
Hardly do I ever take, for there are others more deserving.
My... – by Elijah Ramos | 12 Views added 6 months ago
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Your conversations weigh heavy on me,
Every word spoken came with an aftershock of anxiety.
I’ve been trying to breathe without oxygen,
In this underwater labyrinth you’ve called your own.
Tidal waves fill my lungs with questions never... – by Elijah Ramos | 9 Views added 9 months ago
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Lately I’ve been stuck inside my head
With wicked thoughts and worn out daydreams
Guarded emotions seemingly misplaced in the open for whomever to see
But they have not yet witnessed what my own mind has created
A mirage of myself off into the... – by Elijah Ramos | 4 Views added 9 months ago
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You remind me of moonlight,
A reflection of a photogenic memory.
Vacant spaces linger in your presence.
Remnants of you scattered amongst my peripheral vision.
That smile you’ve shown me,
A field of sunflowers could never compare.
These... – by Elijah Ramos | 4 Views added 9 months ago
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Hold me down
With these chains if you must.
I have fallen into a lucid slumber.
A horrid scene masked behind simplicity.
A lifelong battle within myself.
I dare not close these bloodshot eyes,
For I have seen things not meant to be shown.
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Underwater with no air to breathe,
I'm unsure of how long it's been.
How long have I been sinking?
Drowning in this deep end;
Too frozen to reach some sort of surface.
I am on the edge of death,
Trapped within an underwater purgatory.
My... – by Elijah Ramos | 7 Views added 1 year ago
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My thoughts are too erratic.
Here on a ledge, flirting with insanity.
My head is spinning; spiraling.
The sway is repetitive; unevenly disproportionate.
A sudden somersault of emotions,
Led to one misstep into the sea.
Seemingly everywhere,... – by Elijah Ramos | 6 Views added 1 year ago
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I let you in and then what?
With no consent, you pushed right through.
You have seen what cannot be unseen.
A version of myself; prying eyes have yet to linger.
Here you are, in the far depths of my mind.
Unraveling these secrets meant to be... – by Elijah Ramos | 6 Views added 1 year ago
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Look here below this surface.
Nothing is as it seems to be.
The aftermath of a raging storm;
Now a puddle on the concrete.
Monsters hide here, but they'll be discrete.
A mouth once sown shut;
Now ripped open, spilling everything.
Words seem... – by Elijah Ramos | 3 Views added 1 year ago
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In this moment my heart is beating,
In a foreign rhythm.
I am rooted to this pavement.
Such a nervous wreck; a stuttering mess.
I fell too fast; crash-landing into you.
Just one step and I will fall right back out.
In this moment my eyes are... – by Elijah Ramos | 2 Views added 1 year ago
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In the realm of slumber, you will not find me there.
It's one of many burdens; this deprivation.
My mind is in constant motion, filled with contemplation.
Dreams are slowly fading.
Replaced with nightmares; too lucid to comprehend.
A stutter of... – by Elijah Ramos | 6 Views added 1 year ago
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Take this needle and this thread; stitch up this heart of mine.
Make it brand new.
It's a little disheveled; with a few old scars here and there.
It's been toyed with and shattered, but can it still be repaired?
The color gray stains my vision.
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Left here in an empty space; deprived of oxygen.
Stuck just in this one place; I can hardly breathe.
A thick cloud of poison, rests inside these caved in lungs.
What exactly is this feeling?
My heart, it's still beating; yet something is... – by Elijah Ramos | 28 Views added 2 years ago
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Here in the palm of my hand
Sits a box
Sealed up tight with a key
Nowhere in sight
It's my heart
That it holds within
Yet it remains unreachable
Please don't get too close
The bridge beneath your feet
Is up in flames
Take just one more... – by Elijah Ramos | 12 Views added 2 years ago
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Here I lay
Cold and not yet decayed
My body speaks in motions
I cannot relay
Abandoned in an empty room
With only a single noose
What was I to do
But simply give in to temptation
I left a letter
To whomever passes by
Well-preserved yet... – by Elijah Ramos | 13 Views added 2 years ago
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I can sit here and write
A million things
But those words remain dormant
Never expressing what it is
I truly feel
If I told you my story
Could you believe it
There are at least a hundred reasons
Why I will keep it all a secret
Empty... – by Elijah Ramos | 5 Views added 2 years ago
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When I stand upon this ledge,
All I see is certain death.
The sun in the sky above means nothing.
For all I see is certain death.
When I think about the afterlife,
My feet walk closer and closer to this ledge.
Why am I even here to begin... – by Elijah Ramos | 8 Views added 2 years ago
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There's a fire within;
One such tethered to this heart.
Why am I even here?
A tidal wave of emotions;
Crashing into something that's missing.
To face a fear with no recollection.
A reserved disposition.
There's this spark you see;
But no... – by Elijah Ramos | 2 Views added 2 years ago
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Somedays,
I let you occupy my mind.
Most nights,
My heart still beats in foreign rhythms.
This heart that has been
Tattered and torn asunder.
You kept ahold of it,
For far longer than I'd like to admit.
The taste of love,
Still lingers on... – by Elijah Ramos | 16 Views added 2 years ago
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I've been holding my breath in
For far too long.
Pretending like the world
Hasn't crashed around me.
All this air and yet;
I've wasted my time on nothing.
Feeling like a burden;
Trying to stay headstrong,
But to try isn't ever good enough.
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Dear stranger,
I remember the day I first met you.
A short hello was all it took.
A day I won't forget.
You stood in front of me;
A mere foot away.
I was depressed.
I felt helpless;
So out of tune with any and everything else.
Dear... – by Elijah Ramos | 23 Views added 2 years ago
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I suppose this is it.
I have reached my limit.
These thoughts inside my head,
Are leading me astray.
I no longer know,
Where it is I need to go.
Trace these scars upon my skin.
A road map of where I could've been.
Am I as tainted as they... – by Elijah Ramos | 16 Views added 2 years ago
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Can you feel this pressure?
A repeating emotion;
The thought to disappear still lingers.
Will you be gone without a trace?
Self-inflicted impulses;
With a nervous heartbeat
And a heavy rock around your feet,
You're fading away.
Why is that?
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Lately
My heart has been beating,
In a way I do not recognize.
An unknown rhythm;
It's unfortunate.
There is no part of me that remains calm.
Laughing hysterically
At something I cannot comprehend.
A tint of red on my cheeks.
What is this?
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I wrote a song for you once,
But I couldn't compile it just right.
I heard you say aloud,
The names you hold dear;
Yet mine was never spoken.
I wrote a poem for you,
But all you did was take it in
And delete it from your own memory.
Like I... – by Elijah Ramos | 5 Views added 2 years ago
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Remember Edgar Allan Poe?
The quote where he said,
"I was never really insane
Except upon occasions when
My heart was touched."
Every beat of mine was just the same.
Every touch from you screamed insanity.
You were etched into my life,
Like... – by Elijah Ramos | 33 Views added 2 years ago
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Beneath my feet
The ground is caving in.
I cannot seem to move;
I'm rooted in place.
Beneath my feet,
It's like someone else
Is pulling me under.
It terrifies me.
I do not know
What awaits me,
Inside this quicksand
Beneath my feet.
... – by Elijah Ramos | 15 Views added 2 years ago
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Do you know what it's like
To live with a self-made obsession?
One drop of this cyanide,
And I've spiraled into a depression.
I drank too much.
Now I've blacked out.
Thinking I could end my life.
But as I woke
From this dead sleep,
It's... – by Elijah Ramos | 15 Views added 2 years ago
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How long have I held my breath in for?
This weight I feel has been too much;
A heavy burden to have carried with me.
What will it take?
How far can I honestly go?
I'm burning up excessively;
A self-induced fever of sorts it seems.
How much... – by Elijah Ramos | 10 Views added 2 years ago
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Put your palm on my chest
And tell me what this feeling is
A fevered dream
A loss of sanity
This love is clear
Yet somehow hazy
An unknown embrace
Hold me tighter
I'm sick of pretending
But that's all I am
A waste of a moment
A bitter... – by Elijah Ramos | 13 Views added 2 years ago
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There's this open wound
Underneath my sleeve.
It's bleeding heavily;
Yet not a single drop can be seen.
It's like I took a part of myself
And buried it six feet deep.
This heart of mine,
It strays in the palm of my hand;
Yet for some reason,... – by Elijah Ramos | 30 Views added 2 years ago
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Take this tattered heart
And hold it steady now.
Take it away from me.
Lock it tight inside a room
I cannot reach.
It's my heart, you see.
The rhythm it beats is
Quite unknown to me.
My heart;
It's become a fragile little thing.
I took too... – by Elijah Ramos | 27 Views added 2 years ago
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It's 5am,
And I'm just here.
Not knowing what I should write.
Would it be about you?
Or about the clear skies and starry nights?
Would it be about what a mess I've become?
It's 8am,
And I'm just me.
Staring up at the ceiling
Until these... – by Elijah Ramos | 2 Views added 2 years ago
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It started out like any other story.
Laying there with you,
It felt so real;
Yet the reality is different now.
I want to reminisce,
I want to hold you in my arms,
The way I used to.
Kiss you the same as I always did.
But years have gone by,
... – by Elijah Ramos | 17 Views added 2 years ago
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Here we go,
Let's begin this war.
To the other side,
Once I close these eyes.
It'll only last a moment.
However,
My mind is a vortex of emotions.
I cannot bring myself to stay asleep.
This late at night;
The monsters in my closet,
Are... – by Elijah Ramos | 15 Views added 2 years ago
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Silence;
A form of respect,
A way to speak unspoken words.
I wept internally
As I, myself, could not show weakness.
They laughed at her as she walked in.
Abandoning the reason why they were there in the first place.
A past story for another... – by Elijah Ramos | 33 Views added 2 years ago
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I sat alone, alone on such cold grass.
A gentle, gentle breeze during midday.
No need to hold back, not for anything.
Closing these eyes, I sat alone to mourn here.
A moment of silence guaranteed.
I am so, so finally... – by Elijah Ramos | 15 Views added 2 years ago
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Ask me how I feel
And I'll just sit there.
Contemplating.
Hesitating.
Unsure of what to say.
I'll tell you that I'm fine.
Letting you know that I'm A okay.
But I am different.
My reactions are somewhat flawed.
I assure you.
You can go... – by Elijah Ramos | 33 Views added 2 years ago
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It hurts
This heart of mine
A self-deprecating little thing
How unfortunately full of misery
But what does it matter
It's who I am
Who I've always been
It's suffocating
And there's no limit
A sour dose of poison
It fills my lungs with all... – by Elijah Ramos | 23 Views added 2 years ago
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How am I supposed to feel now?
The road I paved,
Is filled with crevices and misery.
Stuck inside a mind so vile;
There are lucid things,
These eyes of mine cannot un-see.
The darkness that resides here,
A once pleasant company.
How am I... – by Elijah Ramos | 22 Views added 2 years ago
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No matter where I go.
Every corner I turn.
Your face is all I see.
With that same old smile,
Those beautiful heterochromatic eyes.
And I can’t help it.
The taste of your lips still lingers.
And I want mine all over them again.
But you’re... – by Elijah Ramos | 30 Views added 2 years ago
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